Welcome Back To Me!

First off, I have to say that I really don’t know where to start! It’s been seven months that I wasn’t able to write anything since last November of last year! Well, let’s say I just needed a break. I needed to find the whole new me and I’m glad I found ME! Even though I wasn’t writing any stories on my blog or wasn’t sharing about anything recently at all, I still do keep a diary of me and I bring it wherever I go. But I think it’s time for me to share them with you, just to make it up to you as well. 🙂

Now that I am back, I bet you know that I got a lot of things to share. Yes. Life’s new experiences, challenges, up and downs and the people I met along the journey of my life. Since this is my first time to write again for the past seven months, allow me to share those short stories that I’ve had written down during my ordeals and blissful moments.

~ O ~

Feb. 12, 2013

Today, I’m sitting on my bed, over-thinking, I have no idea of what’s going to happen with my life this year. I am totally clueless. You might think that this is absurd, but I bet my existence to be meaningful when it comes to living the amazing time that a man could ever have in this world.

I’m tired and lonely. Even though I got everything I wanted, I’m still looking forward to have a serene yet extraordinary life. I found myself working then going home to sleep, waking up then going to work again. I can’t find the significance of everything that’s happening. In simple words, I don’t know what my purpose is anymore.

However, I’m still and always will remain faithful and optimistic. But I know that one day something is going to come right in front of me that would remind me how special I am. I’m just waiting for it to come.

Mack

~ O ~

This is the very first dairy I have written when I wasn’t really sure what’s going on with my life already. You would ponder that I shouldn’t think about these things but I understand that.  I’m just a human being, like you. But I am glad that I was able to make it. I know there’s always going to be a trial in our lives but just as long as we have God, at the end of every ordeal, there’s always going to be a light and hope that you can get up from falling; a light that will give you guide your way and a hope that will give you strength to follow.

The Beginning of A New Life

Digital CameraI am pleased that I had my bed room done and I was able to personalize it my own way. I am also very blissful that I have a new job. There are so many things that happened to me counting the chances to buy those things my heart had ever desired when I was still a little boy, (new clothes, eat pizza and fries, new wardrobe, side table and blanket), most of them are for my new space at home. Along the happiness I feel through buying these things for myself, I am also going through the feelings of being disgruntled and isolated through those things that are presently happening to me.

As of this point,  I am missing the old house we had before but contented of what we got.  Just for instance, I had been used to have a bed room upstairs before my sister and her family moved to that place. I used to scale all the way through my bed room with a smile in my heart knowing that I am home again with my childhood twin bed I used to slouch to get some rest.  I am also having a hard time adjusting to sleep in my new room since I never stayed at home that long for almost 2 years since I had have the opportunity to live in an apartment. I am also having a hard time dealing with my night shift schedule at work since I used to go to work at four in the morning in my previous job before.Digital Camera

Now everything I had is just a clear picture that I can keep in my memories, in my imaginations and in my heart forever. Going all the way through my apartment every single end of the day and laughing all throughout the night with friends is the clearest picture in my thoughts…always.

I look forward that everything will be the same again. I choose to have a life like that, although everything is simple, yet the feeling of being so happy and contented is at hand. Digital CameraIf I could have the chance to live a normal life once more and earning at the same time, I’d rather take a grasp and never let it go ever again. But I think life has something much to offer and that’s the reason why people needs to let go if something good or bad is being added, like what I used to. I know to myself that this is not an end of everything, yet this just the beginning of a new life.

I just pray that I can make it until the end of this year and hoping to face another  journey in this world with more years that full of happiness. I will always keep what I had and I’ll still have here inside of me until the end of time.

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Photo: I.R.

My Most Unforgettable Characters

No matter how unfortunate and less knowledgeable you are, but if you know how to believe in yourself, to work harder and do your utmost to educate yourself, there’s nothing you could not achieve. This is just one of the things I have learned from the most unforgettable characters of my life. This is my chance to acknowledge them for their love and their biggest contribution for making me as what I am right now. This time, allow me rip their enthralled roles to my own life’s fairy tale.

A Brilliant Pearl. Six months ago, I have met Pearly, the most amazing friend who had come across in my whole life. She was as brilliant as a “true pearl” for me. I have known her in my most tough and haunting moment of my life. I’m overly happy as I know a friend who’s very true to herself, a friend that really knows the whole me for just a very short period of time and accepted me for who I really am. She’s the witness of how weak I was before and become strong every single day while facing my once called unreasonable world.

Just after I lost my job one day, I was informed by Pearl about this free call center training from the biggest corporation in the country. At first, I doubted I could pursue the training because I don’t have any savings anymore. However, this good friend of mine was so kind enough to encourage me for grabbing the opportunity to attend the class. She even credited me some money just to finish the training despite of the fact that she needs it more than me since she’s taking up her master’s degree and living very independently. For the first time of my life, I was able to feel the urge to go to the training every single day knowing that there’s still someone who believes in me although some people behind your back thinking that you’re just nobody. She’s been there when I cried and when I laugh. She’s always available for pieces of advice and I commend her for that. She is exceptional.

My Wonder Woman. One day after I graduated from college, I was looking for a job and luckily got hired in one of the most prominent companies in my country. I was 20 at that time and so happy. Every single day, I was always motivated to go to work and was always inspired to do my duties. I have met many superb people and made a lot of friends. One of them was the self-effacing, very humble person named Gerlyn (Wonder woman).

On my fourth month with this company, I was chosen to be the one of the challengers of our department for the “King and Queen Singing Contest.” When our manager was trying to grant us the schedule for practice, she entitled us to go to the office to plan together with the people who are going to support us from our department. On this very event, I met Gerlyn. I called her Wonder woman for the reason that she’s a very hard worker, wonderful and motivated girl I have ever met. She’s like a grower who doesn’t get tired of taming her farm. You can never ever see her missed something or even forget a thing that could benefit everybody she knows. She taught me how to appreciate life in the most extraordinary way and to face every challenge I have with courage and spur. She taught me the command of having friends and to appreciate every moment with them more than I usually do. She is special.

A Hand To Hold. I know a few friends who’ve been hurt by their loved ones and even their friends and best friends in many painful ways. Few of them for some bases have become their best enemies. Because of this, there was a point in my life that I said to myself that I shouldn’t be trusting people that much because of the fear that this experience will happen to me as well. But not until I met Ian, my best second hand. We share a lot of the same interests and we have a lot of similarities. We never get bored when we are with each other. When I have problems, I run to him and he does the same.

I was out of nowhere one day after doing the job hunt that I used to do and I needed a place to stay or a boarding house to stay since both of my parents were not home, my sister and brother were in different side of the world either. I was standing in front of this boarding house and a guy named Ian, who’s staying in this house, approached me and let me in. Since then, we became very close like I never experienced with a friend before. Other than my father, my God in heaven, and my big bro, he’s like my other special big bro. He’s my confidant, an open hand that I can hold, a shoulder that I can depend on and a shelter that I can always go home to. He is incredible.

My Loving Mother. My family is always my inspiration and they have been very supportive of me all these years. But only my mother had played the most remarkable role in my life. She always believes in me and supports me whatever decisions I make as a whole person and as a responsible being. She taught me everything.

I remember the first time I ever lost my job and I went home. It’s so happen that my mother was home from Cebu for a vacation. She was doing something when I called her from my bed room and she directly approached me, gazing so worried. She embraced her so tightly and I cried in front of her, hardly as I ever did. Very concerned, she asked me what happened. My mother knows I was so sad at that time knowing that I was living alone for nearly three years without a mother to cry and lean on. But I didn’t tell my mother what had happened for the reason I don’t want to see her cry ever again. I just told her that I am so tired and lonely and needed a hug for a while. She totally understood. My mother is not that privileged to finish her education, but she is educated enough to teach us – her children – the lesson of life and love. She is, in fact, the reason why I keep on standing in times that I am totally down on my knees. She’s more than a mother for me and for all of us as her family. She’s irreplaceable.

~o~

Like my mother, these special people I pointed out above were just come from nothing, yet they have become successful in life and have become the good instruments in many people’s lives including mine. I never learned how beautiful life really is until God gave me these angels as the instruments to help me bypass all the trials I had for the past few years and will have for the years to come. I’m so lucky to have these people with me. I would never ever forget what they have thought me.

Just recently, my father and I have celebrated our birthdays together. I have also just rebuilt my bed room (my simple niche) at home with the help of my family and luckily, got a new job. Well, September is almost over. I can’t guess what would happen in the future. But now I’m happy and so much blessed to have my family and friends with me and that’s what matters the most. Perhaps, I will fall again and God will send another angels to catch me, then I have a reason I have to create a part two of this story. Who knows? 🙂

Copyright © September 31, 2012 by The Diary of Me

Published by MACK

Sky is the Limit

ecently, I have been very busy at work and it’s been giving me a very limited time. Today, I want to grab this opportunity to share my happiness about the things that had been happening which were extremely fantastic and the one-in-a-lifetime occurrences.

I am about to hail another chapter of my life two days from now since I’ll be commemorating my date of birth on Thursday. I know I’ll have more challenges to face, more amazing people to meet, and more happy and rigid times to deal with.

Now I am ready for more. I’ll reach the highest star; I’ll make my dreams the reality; I’ll climb the so-called corporate ladder without stepping someone’s shoes. No one can stop me from achieving my endeavor. And after all, sky is the limit.

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Photo: I.R.

The Lucky 4 Gifts for The Diary

e were created with gifts and those are the things that can really inspire us in some small or big ways. The gift of life and love are the paramount examples. Some of them we receive through good relationship with friends and loved ones, undeniable skills and talents and some we receive through material stuff. For me, everything I obtain from anyone – big or small – I’ll wholeheartedly accept it. And that’s exactly what just happened for the past few days.

Just recently, I opened my email inbox and to my surprise, I got four nominations for these particular awards from the following people who truly inspire me. My nephew, Kevin also celebrated his 4th Birthday on that very same day. I just said to myself, “Alright, my number 4, here you go again.” When I received them, it seemed my happiness leaped to the highest intensity. It reminds me of the time when my nephew got his birthday gift from us, he seemed very, very happy and to tell you, no one can touch his gifts except him. Now I can’t believe I’m doing the same thing! I’m just kidding. 🙂

     

  

I just want to express my huge appreciation to Amy of The World Is A Book for nominating me for the Inspiring Blog Award, to Raven of the Raven’s Witch for the Beautiful Blogger Award, to Nizy of the Nizy’s Life Compendium for the Super Sweet Blogging Award and to the Chronicles of Bad Times for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award. You are the best bloggers I have ever known and I’m glad and honored you’ve found this diary as one the bests as well. Thanks for the gift of friendship and for making this blog possible.

Here are the rules to participate when you have been nominated for the “Very Inspiring Blogger Award,” “Beautiful Blogger Award” and “Inspiring Blog Award”:

* Thank the person who nominated you, share seven things about yourself, nominate seven other bloggers for this award, put the logo and the rules of the award on your blog site, and let your seven picks know they are nominated.

The 7 random facts about me:

  1. I firmly believe in the power of prayer.
  2. I’m one of the men with a few words.
  3. I always strum my acoustic guitar whenever I can’t go to sleep.
  4. My lucky number always has been and always will be 4. It pops up in front of me in the most obvious and undeniable ways, but only when something good is about to happen.
  5. Country songs are my genre and that leads me of dreaming to sing with Taylor Swift. 🙂
  6. I never learned how to swim.
  7. I love the freedom of living alone, but I also love things that make me feel six again.

I accept these awards as gifts from these beautiful people. I post it not because I should, but because it reminds me that something good is going to happen. I feel so honored to have such opportunity to be known. Now it’s time for me to share the so called blessings. Below are the lists of the NOMINEES for each of these gifts.

For the Very Inspiring Blogger Award and Beautiful Blogger Award:

  1. NIZY’S LIFE COMPENDIUM
  2. THROUGH THE HEALING LENS
  3. THE WHY ABOUT THIS
  4. MEANWHILE, MELODY MUSES
  5. MARVA SEATON LIFE LINE & SURVIVAL BLOG
  6. REVELATIONS IN WRITING
  7. THE WORLD IS A BOOK

For the Inspiring Blog Award:

  1. SHARING ME MYSELF AND I
  2. THE COSMOS
  3. READING PLEASURE
  4. ALARNA ROSE GRAY
  5. LOST IN TRANSLATION
  6. REVELATIONS IN WRITING
  7. MEANWHILE, MELODY MUSES

For the Super Sweet Blogging Award, here are the rules:

* Thank the super sweet blogger who nominated you, nominate 13 other  bloggers, post the logo on your post and answer these five super sweet questions:

1.  Cookies or Cake? Both.

2. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate.

3. What is your favorite sweet treat? Ice Cream – Ube or Purple Yam flavor.

4. When do you crave sweet things the most? Whenever the urge of eating something sweet comes in, especially after every lunch.

5.   If you had a sweet nickname, what would it be? Mackisig or Mack- means handsome. It’s my real nickname.

The nominees for Super Sweet Blogger Award are:

  1. CHRONICLES OF BAD TIMES
  2. THE WORLD IS A BOOK
  3. THE WHY ABOUT THIS
  4. MEANWHILE, MELODY MUSES
  5. MARVA SEATON LIFE LINE & SURVIVAL BLOG
  6. REVELATIONS IN WRITING
  7. THINGS I WANT TO TELL MY MOTHER
  8. SHARING ME MYSELF AND I
  9. THE COSMOS
  10. RAVEN’S WITCH
  11. READING PLEASURE
  12. LOST IN TRANSLATION
  13. THROUGH THE HEALING LENS

Lastly, I want to thank Marilou, my co-worker/my good friend for the gift. She said, she remembered me while she was looking to buy herself a new purse. Though it’s not my birthday yet, she’s so kind enough to give me this wallet as her advance gift.
“Thanks, Moms! This is so incredibly useful!”

~o~

Related post: The Very Inspiring Award for the Diary

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

The Ultimate Beams of Hope

or the past few months, there’s a lot of things had happened to the life of a young man named *Jay – new career, new relationship, and new challenges of being a successful independent. He just loves to share a few things of his remarkable stories out of many because he knows it would have been very long and might be tedious. But as far as I know, every story is definitely worth reading for. Here’s what he just shared:

Revealed. Jay is only 20, but he’s completely reliable to himself – not dependent to his parents or anyone else to provide his needs and wants. He is a quiet person, a man with a few words. You can only hear him speak at least 50 words a day. It’s seldom for you see him laugh but he’s not that serious either. He is very helpful and willing to take extra miles for someone in need. He didn’t experience to be treated like a bad guy because he knows how to consider other people’s feelings and treat them well.

Jay

Way back last year, Jay was so privileged to have a job with reasonable pay in one of the prominent companies in his country. Although he lives on his own already, he was still able to divide his blessings with his parents from the company he worked with. He promised his parents to take good care of them for the best of his ability given that they’re not that strong anymore to make end meets. He dreamed to finish mending their very old home that hasn’t been done for many years. He dreamed to have his very first computer to widen his knowledge and he dreamed to be a good provider in his relationship with his loved one. He was a very happy and blissful young boy and, in fact, a dreamer until something happened to him that has made his whole life changed.

Jay lost his job for the very first time in his life. He was accused for something that he didn’t intentionally do. For his entire career, this is the first time he has made an honest mistake that made his everything bring to an end. He explained himself but no one seemed to believe, no one even understood. He told nothing but only the truth. His heart was broken. His dreams and plans came to nothing. Everything that he has was gone and that brought his world to an end.

Beams of hope. After what happened, Jay didn’t surrender. He didn’t stop believing himself that what he did is RIGHT. Even once, the words giving up never ever came to his mind. He can’t seem to find someone on earth to trust and to share his anguish with but only God and his diary. His relationship suffered, he was running out of money, he has no choice but to go home and humbly ask for his parents help that had nothing much to offer because they’re old. Nevertheless, his life didn’t stop there. He held on tightly to those things he knows and believes. He faithfully held on tight to God’s words and promises that He will never abandon him especially to his most difficult times. He is very faithful, strong and very determined to have his happy life back, to make things to be connected again, to reach the highest star, to continue dreaming and let these dreams come true.

Now, 23 year-old Jay is working in a very prestigious company in the world. He promised himself that he will do his very best to take care of his work, make the best out of it and to continue his plans and dreams that have been put aside for a long, long time.

~o~

HOUGHTS. We are in this world to appreciate life. We have everything we need here. We might fail and get hurt one day, but giving up is never an option. Like Jay, all we need to have is the fidelity and the ability to believe that we can make it through. He never stepped someone else’s feet just for him to be successful. Even though he knows to himself that he never did anything wrong, but still has been kicked out of his job, Jay didn’t lose hope. He firmly accepted it wholeheartedly because he believes that God will never give him ordeals that he cannot stand. After all, faith in everything that we do is the main tool to outshine whatever trial and tribulation we will encounter across in life. Jay was also the one who wrote this inspiring story, and that is actually ME.

* is the writer of The Diary of Me

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Photo: Ian Rey