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This is one of my few personal writings about what is going on with my life and I decided to share it with you. I have no one else to share my grief, happiness or simply my thoughts about everything, so I think putting them into words would be the best preference for me to do.

My Hope to the Right Path

I just want to share how happy I am to have my baby with me after all these years. She just got a simple gift for herself, a new cellphone. Despite of everything that is happening to me, I just realize how lucky I am of knowing her and sharing what I have in this world. I would never have these things I have right now if it wasn’t because of her. I would never make this far if it wasn’t because of her support, love and understanding. And I think it’s time for me to support her of whatever it is she wanted to do or have with her money for as long as it is for the good as what she always does to me. She is the most amazing and loving person I have ever known.

Despite of my success, I’m always thinking that there’s still something missing: something happening which I know to myself that’s not right. Doing my job as a call center representative is a dream come true, but I can’t seem to stomach the graveyard shift anymore. The account seems to have a lot of scope of support and I can’t seem to breathe at all because of the busy queue. I’m always thinking about quitting and switching career that I always wanted to have, which is to become a home-based call center agent or an online freelancer. I guess I am just so eager to experience new things.

MY HOPE to the Right Path of LIFE

My plan is still hanging and it’s not final yet. But for the mean time, I will do my best to take good care of myself in order to continue with what I have right now which I do believe God has given me. I look forward to have a nice profession so I could be happy meeting our needs with the fact that I don’t have yet all the things that a man could always desire to have in this world. God only knows what’s best for me and for whatever it is that He is going to provide, I will accept it wholeheartedly. I will take the risks just to fulfill my dreams without forgetting His teachings. My only hope is for Him to always guide to the right path.



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First off, I have to say that I really don’t know where to start! It’s been seven months that I wasn’t able to write anything since last November of last year! Well, let’s say I just needed a break. I needed to find the whole new me and I’m glad I found ME! Even though I wasn’t writing any stories on my blog or wasn’t sharing about anything recently at all, I still do keep a diary of me and I bring it wherever I go. But I think it’s time for me to share them with you, just to make it up to you as well. 🙂

Now that I am back, I bet you know that I got a lot of things to share. Yes. Life’s new experiences, challenges, up and downs and the people I met along the journey of my life. Since this is my first time to write again for the past seven months, allow me to share those short stories that I’ve had written down during my ordeals and blissful moments.

~ O ~

Feb. 12, 2013

Today, I’m sitting on my bed, over-thinking, I have no idea of what’s going to happen with my life this year. I am totally clueless. You might think that this is absurd, but I bet my existence to be meaningful when it comes to living the amazing time that a man could ever have in this world.

I’m tired and lonely. Even though I got everything I wanted, I’m still looking forward to have a serene yet extraordinary life. I found myself working then going home to sleep, waking up then going to work again. I can’t find the significance of everything that’s happening. In simple words, I don’t know what my purpose is anymore.

However, I’m still and always will remain faithful and optimistic. But I know that one day something is going to come right in front of me that would remind me how special I am. I’m just waiting for it to come.


~ O ~

This is the very first dairy I have written when I wasn’t really sure what’s going on with my life already. You would ponder that I shouldn’t think about these things but I understand that.  I’m just a human being, like you. But I am glad that I was able to make it. I know there’s always going to be a trial in our lives but just as long as we have God, at the end of every ordeal, there’s always going to be a light and hope that you can get up from falling; a light that will give you guide your way and a hope that will give you strength to follow.

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600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 1,900 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 3 years to get that many views.

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Digital CameraI am pleased that I had my bed room done and I was able to personalize it my own way. I am also very blissful that I have a new job. There are so many things that happened to me counting the chances to buy those things my heart had ever desired when I was still a little boy, (new clothes, eat pizza and fries, new wardrobe, side table and blanket), most of them are for my new space at home. Along the happiness I feel through buying these things for myself, I am also going through the feelings of being disgruntled and isolated through those things that are presently happening to me.

As of this point,  I am missing the old house we had before but contented of what we got.  Just for instance, I had been used to have a bed room upstairs before my sister and her family moved to that place. I used to scale all the way through my bed room with a smile in my heart knowing that I am home again with my childhood twin bed I used to slouch to get some rest.  I am also having a hard time adjusting to sleep in my new room since I never stayed at home that long for almost 2 years since I had have the opportunity to live in an apartment. I am also having a hard time dealing with my night shift schedule at work since I used to go to work at four in the morning in my previous job before.Digital Camera

Now everything I had is just a clear picture that I can keep in my memories, in my imaginations and in my heart forever. Going all the way through my apartment every single end of the day and laughing all throughout the night with friends is the clearest picture in my thoughts…always.

I look forward that everything will be the same again. I choose to have a life like that, although everything is simple, yet the feeling of being so happy and contented is at hand. Digital CameraIf I could have the chance to live a normal life once more and earning at the same time, I’d rather take a grasp and never let it go ever again. But I think life has something much to offer and that’s the reason why people needs to let go if something good or bad is being added, like what I used to. I know to myself that this is not an end of everything, yet this just the beginning of a new life.

I just pray that I can make it until the end of this year and hoping to face another  journey in this world with more years that full of happiness. I will always keep what I had and I’ll still have here inside of me until the end of time.

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Photo: I.R.

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No matter how unfortunate and less knowledgeable you are, but if you know how to believe in yourself, to work harder and do your utmost to educate yourself, there’s nothing you could not achieve. This is just one of the things I have learned from the most unforgettable characters of my life. This is my chance to acknowledge them for their love and their biggest contribution for making me as what I am right now. This time, allow me rip their enthralled roles to my own life’s fairy tale.

A Brilliant Pearl. Six months ago, I have met Pearly, the most amazing friend who had come across in my whole life. She was as brilliant as a “true pearl” for me. I have known her in my most tough and haunting moment of my life. I’m overly happy as I know a friend who’s very true to herself, a friend that really knows the whole me for just a very short period of time and accepted me for who I really am. She’s the witness of how weak I was before and become strong every single day while facing my once called unreasonable world.

Just after I lost my job one day, I was informed by Pearl about this free call center training from the biggest corporation in the country. At first, I doubted I could pursue the training because I don’t have any savings anymore. However, this good friend of mine was so kind enough to encourage me for grabbing the opportunity to attend the class. She even credited me some money just to finish the training despite of the fact that she needs it more than me since she’s taking up her master’s degree and living very independently. For the first time of my life, I was able to feel the urge to go to the training every single day knowing that there’s still someone who believes in me although some people behind your back thinking that you’re just nobody. She’s been there when I cried and when I laugh. She’s always available for pieces of advice and I commend her for that. She is exceptional.

My Wonder Woman. One day after I graduated from college, I was looking for a job and luckily got hired in one of the most prominent companies in my country. I was 20 at that time and so happy. Every single day, I was always motivated to go to work and was always inspired to do my duties. I have met many superb people and made a lot of friends. One of them was the self-effacing, very humble person named Gerlyn (Wonder woman).

On my fourth month with this company, I was chosen to be the one of the challengers of our department for the “King and Queen Singing Contest.” When our manager was trying to grant us the schedule for practice, she entitled us to go to the office to plan together with the people who are going to support us from our department. On this very event, I met Gerlyn. I called her Wonder woman for the reason that she’s a very hard worker, wonderful and motivated girl I have ever met. She’s like a grower who doesn’t get tired of taming her farm. You can never ever see her missed something or even forget a thing that could benefit everybody she knows. She taught me how to appreciate life in the most extraordinary way and to face every challenge I have with courage and spur. She taught me the command of having friends and to appreciate every moment with them more than I usually do. She is special.

A Hand To Hold. I know a few friends who’ve been hurt by their loved ones and even their friends and best friends in many painful ways. Few of them for some bases have become their best enemies. Because of this, there was a point in my life that I said to myself that I shouldn’t be trusting people that much because of the fear that this experience will happen to me as well. But not until I met Ian, my best second hand. We share a lot of the same interests and we have a lot of similarities. We never get bored when we are with each other. When I have problems, I run to him and he does the same.

I was out of nowhere one day after doing the job hunt that I used to do and I needed a place to stay or a boarding house to stay since both of my parents were not home, my sister and brother were in different side of the world either. I was standing in front of this boarding house and a guy named Ian, who’s staying in this house, approached me and let me in. Since then, we became very close like I never experienced with a friend before. Other than my father, my God in heaven, and my big bro, he’s like my other special big bro. He’s my confidant, an open hand that I can hold, a shoulder that I can depend on and a shelter that I can always go home to. He is incredible.

My Loving Mother. My family is always my inspiration and they have been very supportive of me all these years. But only my mother had played the most remarkable role in my life. She always believes in me and supports me whatever decisions I make as a whole person and as a responsible being. She taught me everything.

I remember the first time I ever lost my job and I went home. It’s so happen that my mother was home from Cebu for a vacation. She was doing something when I called her from my bed room and she directly approached me, gazing so worried. She embraced her so tightly and I cried in front of her, hardly as I ever did. Very concerned, she asked me what happened. My mother knows I was so sad at that time knowing that I was living alone for nearly three years without a mother to cry and lean on. But I didn’t tell my mother what had happened for the reason I don’t want to see her cry ever again. I just told her that I am so tired and lonely and needed a hug for a while. She totally understood. My mother is not that privileged to finish her education, but she is educated enough to teach us – her children – the lesson of life and love. She is, in fact, the reason why I keep on standing in times that I am totally down on my knees. She’s more than a mother for me and for all of us as her family. She’s irreplaceable.


Like my mother, these special people I pointed out above were just come from nothing, yet they have become successful in life and have become the good instruments in many people’s lives including mine. I never learned how beautiful life really is until God gave me these angels as the instruments to help me bypass all the trials I had for the past few years and will have for the years to come. I’m so lucky to have these people with me. I would never ever forget what they have thought me.

Just recently, my father and I have celebrated our birthdays together. I have also just rebuilt my bed room (my simple niche) at home with the help of my family and luckily, got a new job. Well, September is almost over. I can’t guess what would happen in the future. But now I’m happy and so much blessed to have my family and friends with me and that’s what matters the most. Perhaps, I will fall again and God will send another angels to catch me, then I have a reason I have to create a part two of this story. Who knows? 🙂

Copyright © September 31, 2012 by The Diary of Me

Published by MACK

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ecently, I have been very busy at work and it’s been giving me a very limited time. Today, I want to grab this opportunity to share my happiness about the things that had been happening which were extremely fantastic and the one-in-a-lifetime occurrences.

I am about to hail another chapter of my life two days from now since I’ll be commemorating my date of birth on Thursday. I know I’ll have more challenges to face, more amazing people to meet, and more happy and rigid times to deal with.

Now I am ready for more. I’ll reach the highest star; I’ll make my dreams the reality; I’ll climb the so-called corporate ladder without stepping someone’s shoes. No one can stop me from achieving my endeavor. And after all, sky is the limit.

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Photo: I.R.

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hen I was just a little boy, I always yearned to have a very happy life. Well, who doesn’t? But for me, it is an extremely diverse obsession. I wished to have more gadgets, more toys, everything that a little boy could always ask to have. However, the more wish I’ve made, the fewer I’ve gotten. Yes, it’s true. That is because we didn’t have that so-called “a decent life” in this world. I just have a very simple family and I am not ashamed to say that we just used to settle for less.

I could still remember the day when I asked my mother to buy me a radio cassette and she simply elucidated  that her money was just enough to buy foods for the whole family. I also once asked my father to buy me a toy car remote control and just bought me a single hot wheels toy car instead.  I just whimpered at that moment provided the reason I didn’t know exactly how expensive they were at that time and I had nothing else to do but to accept what is being given.

Nevertheless, as I grew older and became mature, I grasped a thought that nothing in this world is more significant than being a very happy person with those people you love and love you back unconditionally. I have a few friends who really care; I have my family who’s been very supportive of me after 23 years; I have my baby who truly loves me; and I have God up above Who cares, supports and loves me completely. Nowadays, if my heart desires for something, I’ll simply write it in a piece of paper, will work hard for it as much as possible and will purely pray until I have it. I understand that I’ll never get everything I need in this world, not unless I work hard for it and I’m proud to say that I do, I have everything I had ever needed.

Last night, as I welcome the month of September (month of my birthday), I sat down on my bed, grabbed my diary and engraved this little poem for those important personalities of my life. From the very base of my heart, I offer my gratitude to my family and my baby, to my friends and readers for their unconditional love they have been bestowed after all these time, and especially to my Father in heaven Who have given me this precious life and loving family. This poem is for all you and I’m hoping you’ll like it as much as I do.

My Greatest Gratitude For Love


Living my life is always my weakness

But your presence will forever be my strength

Your love is as precious and brighter as the sun

Which I can’t see the way without your light


Yes, you couldn’t give all the things I want

But you always have everything I need

For being you and being with you would be enough

For me to give you my everything


I can always perceive myself trailing

I even once attempted to stop and refused to go on

But you seize my hands, you believe in me

And you love me for ‘being me’


Troubles are my best friends

Tears are my companions

But you lift me up with your strong arms

You’ll never let them pull me down


You’re my savior, my shelter

My shield that’s ready to protect me

Destiny could keep us away from each other

But we’ll never ever let that happen


I’m not afraid of facing this world

But I’m afraid of being not inside your world

The wind is the witness of our love

Through it, we feel our hearts, beating as one


You give me your loving hands to wipe my tears

You give me your side to back me up

We shared a lot of happy and sad moments together

Now I swore to myself that I’ll be yours forever

~ Mack


Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Photo: PJ.NET

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