I am pleased that I had my bed room done and I was able to personalize it my own way. I am also very blissful that I have a new job. There are so many things that happened to me counting the chances to buy those things my heart had ever desired when I was still a little boy, (new clothes, eat pizza and fries, new wardrobe, side table and blanket), most of them are for my new space at home. Along the happiness I feel through buying these things for myself, I am also going through the feelings of being disgruntled and isolated through those things that are presently happening to me.
As of this point, I am missing the old house we had before but contented of what we got. Just for instance, I had been used to have a bed room upstairs before my sister and her family moved to that place. I used to scale all the way through my bed room with a smile in my heart knowing that I am home again with my childhood twin bed I used to slouch to get some rest. I am also having a hard time adjusting to sleep in my new room since I never stayed at home that long for almost 2 years since I had have the opportunity to live in an apartment. I am also having a hard time dealing with my night shift schedule at work since I used to go to work at four in the morning in my previous job before.
Now everything I had is just a clear picture that I can keep in my memories, in my imaginations and in my heart forever. Going all the way through my apartment every single end of the day and laughing all throughout the night with friends is the clearest picture in my thoughts…always.
I look forward that everything will be the same again. I choose to have a life like that, although everything is simple, yet the feeling of being so happy and contented is at hand. If I could have the chance to live a normal life once more and earning at the same time, I’d rather take a grasp and never let it go ever again. But I think life has something much to offer and that’s the reason why people needs to let go if something good or bad is being added, like what I used to. I know to myself that this is not an end of everything, yet this just the beginning of a new life.
I just pray that I can make it until the end of this year and hoping to face another journey in this world with more years that full of happiness. I will always keep what I had and I’ll still have here inside of me until the end of time.
Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK