My Parents’ Best Reward

People say, “Life is short. You have to make the best out of it every day because you never know if tomorrow would still come.” In short verdict, wise people say, “Live your life as if it is your last.” Personally, I agree with these quotes.

Life is beautiful to live by. Every single day, I’m always blessed and so blissful to have the chance to live mine. Who doesn’t experience complexities, hurt, dilemmas and struggles? Who doesn’t feel happiness and joy? All of us, in fact, had experienced them. No matter how small you possess or how numerous wealth you have in this world, you’re not excused. However, these occurrences – happy or sad – make us wiser and stronger in special ways we never know.

After my shift last Saturday afternoon, I decided to go home to my parents’ house to stop the urge of being with them again after a long week of work. I just had a heart to heart talk with them about everything that has been happening while I’m gone. After an hour or two, I went to my mother’s bed room to have a rest. Since I don’t have a bed room yet, I needed to use hers for the mean time. I woke up at around seven in the evening and I prepared to budge so I could go back to my boarding house (my second home).

While I was on my way to my second home, the insight of being grateful to embrace my own life suddenly came into my mind. I heard a lot of people lose their own lives because of accident, excruciating sickness and some of them just merely committed suicides to end their sufferings. I feel pity for them for the reason that they ended their lives sooner. Of course, we can never blame them or even judge them for what they’ve done because we were raised in different ways. How we perceive life depends on what we believe in, how much we know our Creator and how people influenced us in everything they do.

I acknowledge there were times I felt that my existence in this world was nothing but a trash. I almost asked God to conclude my life because of the consideration that I really don’t have much to offer but harm and disappointments. There were times I let down my parents. I let them feel unfortunate of having me as a big “headache” of the family. My father once yelled at me to leave the house to take responsibility of my actions and I took it very seriously. But this judgment was, in fact, the opposite of everything. My parents didn’t look at me like the way I thought I was. The truth was, they really loved me; they were trying to make me understand the reality of living and taking responsibility of my own actions and to become the man that I could become for the rest of my life. Thus, I was the only one who’s thinking that my existence was worthless.

As days passed by, I came to realize that everything has its reason to happen. I was able to know my limitations; I was able to accept myself wholeheartedly. And I look in to that so deeply as my parent’s best reward for me.

That was five years ago. Now, I am very much able to stand on my own; I devoted myself to give my best in everything I do; and wherever I go, I have my faith with me – faith to myself, especially my faith to God. My parents made the right choice for grounding me on that point of my life so I could realize what I did are wrong. They just simply gave me a second chance to live again through their unconditional love and I’m thanking them so much for that.

Mutely, I was sitting still on the passenger’s seat, heading my way to my boarding house. Many passengers came in and out from one place to another. The wind from the open window blew softly on my face, touching my skin with love. My phone,  along with my earphone was on, I was listening to a random radio station. That’s when I heard these very extraordinary lyrics of a song from an unknown singer. Tears covered my eyes when I heard this beautiful voice, singing:

If you ever need a place to cry

Baby, come to me,

Come to me.

Always know that you were born to fly

But you can come to me.

If the world breaks your heart

No matter where on earth you are,

You can come to me.

Though I’m living in different side of the world, exactly three rides away from my parents, their love will stay with me and my love will stay with them. “No matter where I go, I’m certain that I can count on them and no matter where on earth I am and if ever I need a place to cry, I can always come to God.” In fact, you can too.

My First Love

ll of us have crushes and first loves. If you have none, you’re out of this world! Just kidding! 🙂 No matter how many old or new people (i.e. wife/husband, girlfriends or boyfriends, childhood/best friends etc.) may come in and out of our lives, these special people had left beautiful memories in our hearts and minds, once played the biggest part in our lives and made the enormous space in our hearts. And we have learned a lot from them.

I also had crushes and idols way back in high school and college. There’s also a group of girls at school who’d always called my name whenever I enter our school gate or just going to another class room to talk to a friend. They somewhat stalked me wherever I go. Hah! Well, to be honest, I did the same thing to the girl I was so obsessed with, too. Yes, high school life as it is. 🙂

When I was in High School, I remember my favorite History teacher told us a love story of hers. She had once found the boy of her dreams. He’s a tall, dark, handsome and especially, a gentleman. This guy was once her crush. You know, just the apple of her eyes. She said, after the guy introduced himself in a Senior Prom one night, he has become her official first boyfriend since then.

However, as months passed by, they had found out that they have so many things they didn’t like and had been disagreed with. To make the long story short, they broke up after graduation. They tried to make things work, but still they broke up. Obviously, they were never meant for each other. But every time she sees this guy, she can still never forget their first date. She admitted that she can still barely resist recalling all of the miraculous firsts that she had with him. Then she had found Mr. Right – someone better, someone who really loves her so much. Now she’s married; not to the man of her dreams, but to the man of her life.

Just recently, I had checked my Facebook account and I was stunned to see my ex girlfriend’s profile photo. We haven’t seen each other for years and she still looks more attractive than ever. Like my teacher, I felt I was attracted again whenever I see her pictures. But I’ve found out later that she has a husband and a baby daughter already. She even publicly shared the photos of her baby.

I’m not saying that I’m wretched to know the news. I disclose that I felt a little sad, but I’m so happy and proud for her and for what she has become. We made promises as well, like some of you had with your ex’s. The truth is that she was my first love. We, somehow built our plans and made a list of things to achieve for our near future together – to have kids, to build our dream house, to travel the world and so on. She was, in fact, my fairy tale. But then, everything has changed and we broke up. We agreed to make things work and give each other a chance again, but it ended up worse. Things have fallen into pieces; our dreams didn’t come true.

Eventually, I met someone special, the one who really loves me more than anyone else. I admit that I had an upgrade! Like my teacher, I have found; not my fairy tale, but the true love of my life. I’m happy and very thankful that after all these years, we still hold and love each other. We’re still getting stronger each day as we face the world as one. Hopefully, we could be together in one beautiful home with our kids someday and living a life with a “happily ever after” story.

~o~

houghts. The reason I shared this because I believe that some of us, especially those people my age normally experience this subtle circumstance.

There are times you’d feel that everything’s not working out, but you should at least give it a try and don’t just give up right away. If you believe that things will work out for your relationship, you have to do it together. You must know both side’s weaknesses and imperfections and both should learn how to accept each of them. Love each other again, and always build trust and faith. If things still won’t work out, then I think that’s the time to let go.

I’m not really good in giving advice, but at least I gave it a shot. I shared this one based on my own experiences.

“Baby, thank you for making me laugh and making me feel that I am loved. I would never be complete without you. You’re always here in my heart. I love you!” – MACK

~o~

Copyright © 2012 BY THE DIARY OF ME

Published by MACK

~o~

The Story From a Stranger

Earlier this morning, I’m so delighted to know that I have finished my chores just right on time. When I knew that I didn’t have anything much to do anymore, I proceeded to do my old business – I surf the internet.

I downloaded music, watched videos, read blogs, checked updates, sent emails to friends, until I got myself stuck to one of the trendiest networking sites on the internet. I visited the Books and Entertainment Chat group of this particular site. And unexpectedly, I found out that people are talking different(personal interest and non-sense) stuff until I got a message from a stranger who was looking for a live person for a friendly chat.

In point of fact, I was also looking for someone to talk to, so I messaged the stranger and without a doubt, he messaged me back. That time, the stranger was just goofing online and chatting with family members. Like me, he hasn’t been on this site long himself as well.

His name is Jim. He’s living in the US with his lovable wife and having a very simple life. Though that was the very first time that we chat, it felt like we’ve already known each other for many years.

I was surprised when he shared that he has a few cousins and friends who are in the military and one of them is in Germany. I thought to myself for a few seconds, flashing back the things what a soldier can do unconditionally for his country. Then I grasped that, Jim is not really living a simple life after what he told me.

Being in a military is a very serious job! “Many young adults put off their college dreams and career aspirations and take on other work to make ends meet. Some may turn to odd jobs that they may need to consider commissioning into military service.” I just thought that we’re so lucky enough that I and any members of my family don’t have to do the same thing.

Jim knows to himself that the military is a very serious profession. He had lost numerous friends that have fought for his country. This job had taken many of his friends’ lives. I couldn’t imagine living his life knowing that maybe one day, one of his cousins or friends will be gone forever. He confessed that it is hard to lose close friends but he knows that they were doing what they love to do. And the real sad part for Jim is to be the person to tell their families. He has no choice at all, but to tell them the truth.

I can feel the pain that Jim is going through as we kept on exchanging our stories. If I were in his situation, I would completely feel the same way. But nothing dismayed me more when he messaged me this:

“I know that they loved doing what they do and as friends, we all shared some good times and we knew that one day it might come to this (gone, without saying goodbye).”

I asked Jim if he had been in the military. He said they wouldn’t accept him because of his health. He was born with heart condition. Even though his health is good by now and his heart is surgically repaired according to his doctor, they still wouldn’t accept him. Because of this, I knew then that he is better than to be in the military.

As we go along with our intimate conversation, Jim made me realize that we are not the only people who have worse experiences in life. It must be hard for him to accept it or to let go and move on for just a small period of time. He needs to face such situation that one of his loved ones will be gone for just one blink of an eye. He even told me that his friends say he’s already crazy and the military would’ve made it worse. But after all these years, he still stands and continues to believe that his purpose in life is to be there for his family and friends who need him very much, to be a good example for his children and for him to still watch them grow. I learned a lot for just 30 minutes of time, chatting with Jim. After all, he was never a stranger to me anymore.

For me, Jim is the strongest man that I’ve ever known. Though we are living in different sides of the world, his experience is not different than many of us had. No matter what you are and where you are, indeed, all of us have a purpose in life. And for Jim, that is no other than to be a strong pillar for his friends and loved ones without owning any weapons.

He shared me this inspiring motto of his:

“Spend as much time as you can with the people you are close and say anything that needs to be said because you never know when the last day of your life is going to be.”

Thank you so much for the opportunity of knowing you, Jim.

From Jim to his cousins and friends and to all the brave men behind the military service, I salute you for being such the most generous and strongest people living on earth. No matter where you are, I know that God watches you, your loved ones and your friends.

Until next time!

Dream Big and Never Stop Believing

accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. I always admire this quote from the French writer and Nobel Prize winner, Anatole France.

Many of us are gifted to have the skills in public speaking and writing books to convince people, to connect with people, and to touch other people’s lives. There are things we learned from school and from many sources that have become our passion such as designing houses, making delicious menus, taking beautiful pictures, creating extraordinary websites and stuff like that. Some people are also gifted to have talents in dancing, singing, painting, performing magic tricks, so on and so forth.

All of us, in fact, have talents to share. And I, as a normal person like you, also have talents. There are also some talents I used to have before that I had just taken for granted. I used to draw small pictures to huge paintings; I can dance either folk or modern and even had joined a few dancing and singing contests. But the one I’m so grateful to have is the talent in singing. “Music has always been everything to me and I can’t imagine life without it.”

I’m just a kid who loves to sing.

Shared. I can still remember the day when I was like five or six years old I have sung two lines of song in front of my mother while she was ironing our clothes. She paused for a while and bunged what she was doing and grinned at me. I suddenly stopped singing and I felt mortified, wondering may be she didn’t like my voice or I shouldn’t suppose to be singing that song because of my age. She looked at me for five seconds and said, “Oh my God honey, how could you sing like that? Your voice is so beautiful and sounds so identical to those we’ve heard on the radio!”  I was so young then, but I know to myself already that I love to sing and I’m very fortunate to have that talent.

Perhaps by now, you’re wondering how my voice should sound like! 🙂 Since then, my voice has always been my asset. I write simple songs, and even taught myself on how to play acoustic guitar. It seems music is always with me wherever I go. I almost had my childhood friends jealous because of it. I can still recall the instance that one of my classmates forced me to sing and asked my teacher to get me in front of the class so that everyone can hear me. I’m kind of weird when I was a first grader and they would treat me like one until they heard my voice.

Change. As I grow older, all of a sudden I realized this is the type of carrier that really needs to have a lot of effort and determination to become one. Those who have their talents hidden, either big or small still chose to take the easiest path and that includes me. Probably because we just wanted to be realistic. They opt to be a writer, teacher, doctor, agent and people who run small and huge businesses and or being just a plain husband or wife. But for sure, there are so many frustrated singers, painters and poets out there who are still patiently waiting for their turn to be like Justin Bieber and Adele, Stephanie Meyer and J.R.R. Tolkien.

~o~

HOUGHTS. Whatever it is that we wanted in life, just as long as we are determined, we believe and persevere, happy of what we have become as an individual, there’s no reason for us to stop believing that we can achieve everything we wanted. I’m happy for who I am, for what I am and for what I have, but I’m still DREAMING BIG. All us can dream big things to happen, but like Anatole France says, we also have to believe. There might be risks, but there is no impossible just as long as we consider in ourselves that we can surpass them and we can do it. We are, indeed, the marathon runners of our achievements. Just remember, “we are never given DREAMS without also being given the power to make it come true.” 🙂

New Place, New Challenge, New Life

It’s been a couple of weeks since I haven’t told you about what’s happening with me. Honestly, you’re one of the valuable sources that I just have to share my happy and sad experiences with. So here it is.

I started my Sunday with those typical things I’ve been doing since I have become an independent person: waking at 8 a.m., eating breakfast, going to church, going home and going back to sleep, waking up so late, eat again and sleep… You might say I have an easy life, but it’s the last day of the week! And we all know that it’s the last day of the week and we’ll have another busy and might be complicated day after it. So I permitted myself to rest. I usually spend my weekend with my parents at home but it has a different story now.

On my previous story, (Thank You For A Surprise), I shared with you about my unforgettable moment I had with my family. Many days had passed and another surprise just happened. I’m so glad that finally my sister, together with her family decided to stay in the city to live with us again. Fair enough, they have created a diminutive and cute house at home and they made it quite a little private. The area where they are positioned for a moment was unfortunately my bedroom before, they just renovated it to make it bigger for the family. Which means by now, I don’t have a niche at home and I can’t stay for a night since there’s no bedroom made for another person yet. But if I’m going to think just about myself, it might be unfair or I would feel like devastated about it, but for me it is not. We talked about the arrangement and I totally agreed with it. I’d rather have no place yet than going home without them. If God approves, I can make another bedroom anyway. 🙂 Two days ago, I went home and I already saw the new house of my sister. They seem so happy of the outcome and I’m happy for them too because it did.

New Place, New Challenge, New Life

Probably next week, I need to go home again because I need to change site for my work and it so happen that the company is much closer to where parents are. There should be more time to spend with the family, more time to play with my niece and nephew, and more limited time of sleep. It doesn’t mean my independent life is already over . Well, it’s just a beginning though. It’s just that I’m going to face a fresh and huge challenge of my life. “The course of my life may change, but the person that I have become is going to be the same.” Of course, I still have my second home. Wherever I go, it will always stay here in my heart. That’s why I needed to have a new place at home so that I have at least a place to stay. But it’s okay, I can manage. I know to myself that everything is going to be fine. That’s it for now… I’ll tell you what will happen next as I go along.:)

Words of Wisdom

have been collecting inspirational “quotes” and phrases for years and it has always been my routine already. I got lists of some of my favorites from several authors that really have a great “bang!” to my life. They help me a lot in facing many trials and obstacles as well. Here are the tops on my list:

  • “Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t accomplish your goals. Who says you’re not tougher, harder working and more able than your competition. You see a goal is a dream with a deadline: in writing, measurable, identifiable, and attainable.” – Harvey B. Mackay
  • “Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.” – Robert F. Kennedy
  • “Whenever you’re trying hard, you’re never failing. The only failure is failing to try.” – Anonymous
  • “Don’t sacrifice your future happiness for one night of pleasure, a weekend of excitement, or a thrilling moment of revenge.” – Sean Covey
  • “If you’re going to be able to look back on something and laugh about it, you might as well laugh about it now.” – Marie Osmond
  • “Having the world’s best idea will do you no good unless you act on it. People who want milk shouldn’t sit on a stool in the middle of a field in hopes that a cow will back up to them.” – Curtis Grant
  • “God will prevail in the face of evil, and God helps those who help themselves. Hard work, pride and responsibility were values to live by.” – Mel Blount
  • “We are here on earth to live – to experience whatever comes, to act on that experience as well as we can and hence to grow.” – Ardis Whitman
  • “A champion is someone who gets up, even when he can’t.” – Anonymous
  • “I’d rather be a failure at something I enjoy than be a successful at something I hate.” – George Burns
  • “If your attitude is that only smarter people have something to teach you, your learning opportunities will be very limited. But if you have humble eagerness to learn something from everybody, your learning opportunities will be unlimited.” – Clayton Christensen

I hope they inspire you, too. Take care!

 

 

Copyright © 2012 by The Diary of Me, Published by MACK

Thank You For a Surprise

ife is full of surprises. Many things could happen for just one blink of an eye. People might come and go. You wake up, then you find out that the person you have been missing for a long time is right by your side now.

I say this because I, myself, personally experienced to be left, to be hurt & loved, and to be accepted like many of us had. I have once forgotten the meaning of my existence. But as the years passed, countless things had happened. One day, it appeared to me that I exist because of LOVE – the love that I can dig up from my parents, my brother and sister, my grandma, my friends, and especially the love that I can get from God.

I used to live by myself since I was graduated from college. Since I already told you about my life on my previous story,  for a change I’m going to share about my family’s background. Well, this is my first to carve up about my family. So, here it is…

For more that three years, many things had happened to my family. Just for a little background, there are five members in my family and that includes my parents, my big sister, my big brother and ME. Yes, I am the youngest. We opt to live in different places. Currently, my father is the only one who’s taking care of the house where we grew up. My brother is living in separate house together with his wife and son, Kevin, just 15 steps away from our house. My sister decided to live in Cebu, one of the most beautiful cities in my country together with my mother. I’m happy to know that, like my brother, she’s already settled as well with one daughter, Baby Gillian. Now, there are nine members in the family.

Mama, Papa, Kevin and Gillian

I can’t remember the last time we’ve been together living in the same roof, eating in one table, talking and sharing new stories and experiences. But this is the most memorable month of the year, not just for me, but for my whole family. Why? Because we get together again as a complete and happy family. For years that we haven’t got the chance to unite and splurge the time together, I am very overwhelmed with joy in my heart that we have the chance to be with each other again…in the same roof! It’s a big surprise when I knew that my mother and sister came home from Cebu, together with my sister’s husband and daughter to spend their summer vacation with us.

Gillian

ast Sunday, we went to one of the local beaches here in our city just to have a “family-bonding time” after so many years we haven’t got the chance to do it. With the help of my uncle’s family car, we made it possible to be on this beautiful beach. I was so excited! We ate foods that my mother prepared for us, we took pictures here and there, we jumped into the water – yes, we swam, had fun under the sun, you name it. For the first time after so many years, I saw my sister laughed and had fun with us again. I can’t explain the emotions I felt during that day. Our one and only entertainer was Baby Gillian. She’s just one year and six months old but she can do a lot of things on her own already such as playing with the sand and collecting sea shells. My three-year-old nephew, Kevin was there, as well as his mother. Gillian and Kevin really had fun under the warmth of the smiling sun, playing with the water and sand, as if the place is in fact for children to have fun with. It’s nice to know that my father and brother skipped their important appointments and were able to be there with us.

Kevin

While my mother was sitting on the sea shore beside me with Gillian in her arms, I just mutely observed and realized how lucky I am to have my family with me on that very moment, just enjoying every second of it and not minding about those things that had happened to all us before we became a strong family. Every member depends on each other. I just think that I am so lucky I have my family as the “biggest treasure” that I have ever had, a treasure that I always look forward to have again in the second life. I didn’t think about anything else or what will happen next. Even though I still have a work after that, it never stopped me to enjoy the moment while I was with them. I didn’t care if I’d have my shoes popped up with cracked shells and sands, just as long as I am having fun with them, it doesn’t really matter.

Bother and Sister

hile I was writing this story, it makes me feel sad to think that my mother and sister might be going back to Cebu after a week already, and I need to go back to where I am staying at the same time. But I never lose my hope that we will still be together again as a whole family. Who knows what would be the next big surprise?! All I know is that God is so kind enough to give me that extraordinary moment. He really knows when is the time that I feel like I’m getting lost already and needs a family embrace! That’s just how wonderful life is. LIFE is full of surprises after all! 🙂